It’s my birthday!
I’m singin’ and dancin’ that out ya’ll!
Thoughts on being 40.
I had an amazing year of being 40.
I grew by leaps and bounds.
Pressing comfort zones both physically and mentally.
It really felt like a coming into my own.
If you are new to my journey. I’m the mother of an 18-year-old, a 17-year-old, and a soon to be 15-year-old. When I chose to become a stay-at-home mom at the birth of my oldest, I gave myself fully to that role. That is not to say I didn’t feel like a failure a million times along the way or that I didn’t make a million mistakes along the way.
Cause Lord knows that I sure did.
It just means that I didn’t take the time to discover who I was outside of that role. I guess some people might say that I lost myself. I don’t really see it that way. I made choices. And my choices were of fully immersed service to others (I am heavily Virgo, so no real surprise there. If you are interested in astrology, I can tell you that I’m also strongly Leo and Libra…so again, no surprise to my personality traits).
However, I saw the horizon looming where my teenagers would spread their wings and journey away from that daily need of me being involved in their lives. It began to be time to think about the next phase of my journey. What would that look like? What were my interests?
…and so I started this blog.
As a way to discover my interests. As a way to journal the journey. All the while trying to remember to also enjoy the now. To find that beauty that resides amongst the chaos.
I found photography. I found travel. I found yoga…and pilates. I found concern for the environment.
I found beauty in my strength.
But I also found beauty in my weakness.
I am a human. Just one among multiple billions. I am the same. And yet I am unique.
On Turning 41.
I chose the photo of me taken during my yoga challenge on day 18.
It represents so much of who I became over the course of turning 40.
I am on the rooftop of Princes Street Suites (remember the views that I shared from there in this post?) in Edinburgh Scotland. This was my second visit to Scotland and only 13 months after my very first overseas trip (to Amsterdam and Paris).
Yoga and Pilates.
Boat pose, or navasana, requires core strength. It is also executed in my Pilates class when coming out of the rollover. Finding a fitness regime that I enjoy has been amazing for my health. Now I feel stronger than I have ever felt in the past.
Originally, I didn’t want to take this photo. Usually, the rooftop is rather quiet. However, this night there was a large group. “Creating a scene” makes me feel uncomfortable. But, my mother, ever the extrovert that she is, convinced me to get up there and “strike my pose” anyways. There was a time in my life when no matter how much my soul cried to just go ahead and do it, I would have still declined. So while it did take a little prodding, I was also listening to my instincts which really wanted this sunset as the backdrop for one of my favorite poses.
Here’s to 41.
While some people will say that it’s all downhill after 40 (and yes, I have heard this), I say it’s only just begun.
So here’s to 41…
Let’s see what the future holds!
Let your light shine!